hapi n sad comes together ..

30 / 1 / 09

2day .. hang gai wif mk
she wan cum my hse
thn i ask her she wait ar 7-11
thn i bring her up
she cum up thn .. i ask her ply my lap top sin.. chat wif kim
thn kim alwys lik to say bye ..
bt tat time kim .. reli sad .. thn nvm ..
so mk kip on SAYING FAZ FAZ FAZ .. aduiii ..
thn i fai fai go change clothes.. haiiyoo .. wear lik so K sui ..
thn nvm lu...
thn wan go out tat time . giv hong bao to mk ..
giv jor 2 hong bao..
thn go out..
i cadang go walk to LM
since i so fat .. muz exercise..
thn .. MK kip on say dowan mar..
thn .. V 2 so HUNGRY . >< haiiyoo ..
thn v go nearby 7-11 de shop CALL YAM MEE..
went in ..
thn order ..
thn eat whn eat oso say fai fai fai fai fai .. == ..cnt eat peacefully ..
thn neh.. finish jor .. thn go pay . pay jor .. thn M K ask me ..
wn go walk meh ???!!!!
thn i say yes yes yes yes..
thn she saw teksi ..
i say wan go walk or take taxi ..
thn wan go take jor taxi de..
i say dowan..
go walk thn she say ok lor.. haha..
v walk to LM nt veli tired.. okok oni.
on de way to HOT CITY v 2 kip on say TB fat more nice lar..
thn i say no THIN more nice lar..
argue argue thn go TO HOT CITY walao ..
i lik tat place lor.. haha.. cuz ..
i lik de ppl ther.. XD thn go jor..
go ask ppl whether MK cut wat hairstyle nice?
thn KIP ON ASK 1st..
v go C WOODS gt open mou thn pei mei say go GC haiiya GC n WOODs oso diin open thn go bak hot city..
MK say go quick cut thn ask gui whether ok cut ther mou thn gui say ok ..
c hu is de sifu thn bla bla bla.. tink mk hair
thn go SNIPS i say go SNIPS cut more better more feel ok abit MK say
WAN GO PEI HER quick cut .. i say dowan.. she say ok .
oni me go i waited for 2hour oni snips ask her go in mk go quick cut i go snips haha..
thn cut jor My hair more nicer..
bt mk nt suitable to cut short hair She regret i tink XD

On de moment other ting..
bren go ts wif de bf.. hahhahaahah.. im ok lar..
bt i cadang go ply bren.. say i pengsan ..
MK cal de.. XD so .. ok lor.. XD bren .. almst cry.. so sad .. bt mk say..
her sound reli gen jeong plus chong dong.. i so hapi ..
bt i feel regret.. i make her til lik tis..

De same ting in hot city Go bak hot city WAX N SPRAY MK Hair XD 1st is me..
de uncle help her style her hair.. thn cnnt
thn 2nd is her daddy her daddy style her hair nice nice XD so almst time to go for mk she go bak alone cuz nid ready dinner for her family she go bak..

De same ting .. wif bren. i go LM wait bren .. in MCD saw her frens wif her.. bren say . gt 1 india lok at her ..
wear dao so short mar..
LOK UP TIL DOWN DOWN TIL UP i so angry ler..
bt i din giv her face c i angry .. ^^
thn .. her daddy cal her.. say fetch her bak ..
thn ok ler.. her frens oso wan go bak ler..
so i pui her go wong kok ther wait her father.. v take alot picha nt alot.. jst few.


Bren n niiCk ^^


at de nite..
she break wif her bf..
thn she cum b my gf..
i was hapi..
n
i was .. sad .. i lok lik a bad person


LP bren & LG niiCk ^^


I hope i cn b by urside forever..

--- iI LOVE EUu --- eu are de 1 for me

i miz eu bren ..

IS NT DE REASON

I SHUDNT DISTURB EU BA..

I SHUDNT B WAT I WAN

I SHUDNT B GREEDY

I SHUDNT B PRETENDING..

IM TIRED..

WAT IF 1 DAY I DIE?

EU WIL CRY OR EU WIL B HAPI

NW I JST WISH EU


HAPI FOREVER


WAT IF... I HAD A ACCIDENT?

WAT IF.. I WNT B THER ANY MORE??


IM SORLI


I SHUDNT PRETEND..

I SHUDNT SMILE ..

I SHUDNT B MYSELF


I SHUDNT B


I REGRET NW..

I REGRET TAT I PRETEND..


I HATE DE FEELING NW..

I HATE WAT I WAN NW..

I SHUDNT B


I SHUDNT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

get drunk easily ><

tat day .. wif my couzin they all drink anchor.. + galsberg >< haiiyo
drunk dao me ...
call xiiao kim gor ..
crying on de phn

let me tell eu
wat i wan do tat for

i wan to get my thoughts out

NiiCk

No body will understand what my hearts says..

bren has a bf nw..
she duno i hurt ..
she duno y i sad..
i tell her..
is nt her fault..
is bcuz all de past
i jst simpan dalam hati
i din do any ting ..
so
is quite sure..
im already dead..
i hope she hapi..
i make her worri bout me..
sum time..
i oso love eu..
bt..
i tried to avoid eu frm now on..
i drunk tat time..
i quite clear.
wat i say..
sum time..
eu make me reli sad..
whn i saw eu reply my msg..
even eu love him.
i tell eu de 1 ting..
i nvr .. try to kill myself.
bt...
i wnt bcuz of eu..
try to kill myself...
whn i talk to kim..
is true.. i love eu..
bt..
i wil put on end of it..
i wil make myself clear..
i wil make myself to forgt eu..
i will pray for eur hapiness..
i wil pray for eur health
i wil make myself..
nt appearing infrn of eu..

My world..
is reli simple..
black n white..
no colours..
i hope..
eu wil und y ..
i wan say tis..

1 day..
my ex call me
she say.
niiCk.. are eu OK ?!
i say...
ya.. y?
she say..
i heard eu giv ppl hurt..
hu isiit??
de 1 hu say tis. ting to me.. is de 1 hu hurt me..
she wan to noe y i so sad..
n she duno is her...
i man man adi noe..
my heart..
is dead..

i reli feel tat .. im jst a toy.. sum time..
i dowan ply wif eu.. bt eu force too
whn i wan to ply..eu all jst disepear..
n hu is de 1 r my true fren..?

i have my bst fren..
n she say is reli nice to me..
i reli wan to tell her.. she is 1 of my family..
whn im in de darkest hole..
she is de light..
hu shine my way bak..
i fall in love wif her 1 day..
bt de next day..
i tell my self..
she is jst my bst fren..
another day later..
i hope she wnt forgt me..
she is nice..
reli nice..
bt .. i reli hope..
she wil noe y i say lik tis to her..
i wan her to noe..
she is my bstest fren in de world..
bt .. she wil noe ma?..
i hope she cn hear me..
oh god..
i fall again..
another year.
she bcum noty..
well..
in de msn .. i tell her de truth..
if she wan b gal or boy
i wil support her..
bt..if she bcum gal..
oni i wil support her nt much..
wel..
is bcuz..
if she bcum gal..
she wil b noty
i ask her..
i tell tis to eu..
u muz b hurt rite?
she reply..
en..
i tell her
if u chg..v 2 oso wil get hurt..
im ur best fren bt eu noe i oso hav hurt
bt i jst din say .. bcuz.. i trust eu.. eu wnt so noty..
my trust for eu..
is true..
pls.. dun make me dissapointed..
i dowan b lonely ...

in reality..
i dun hav any much fren..
i tell u de truth..
my heart reli .. hurts...
i wan b by every 1 side..
i wan eu all to b hapi..
i dun k i hurt or wat.
i reli wan eu all hapi..
if eu all hapi..
i oso hapi..
tats is wat i wan.. in reality..

i hope..1 day ..
i die.. i cn c eu all hapi ..
ppl hu love me..
i make dem worry me..
im sori..
bt..
i reali wan my gor..bst fren..fren..family.
hapi..
i tahan so much tear..
bt do eu noe..
i waiting eu to count on..?

NiiCk...

2day..my gor..finally noe me..

my gor.. finally noe hu is me..
my real me..
de 1 .. hu simpan so many rubbish inside heart..
CRY TAHAN SO LONG
WAN CRY BT TAHAN
nw wan cry.. so much cum out..
lik pipe water..
My gor told me..
IF U WAN CRY THN CRY
any ting muz tell me!
dun tahan!
i treat u lik didi..
REAL FAMILY
-tat part.. i adi cry LIK PIPE WATER-

TIS GOR GOR
I TREAT HER LIK MY FAMILY..
REAL FAMILY
de 1 .. hu reli K BOUT Me
MORE BOUT ME
de 1 hu treat me REAL DIDI

I KEPT EVERY TING INSIDE MY HEART
I DIN BRING OUT TO EU ALL
MY HEART PAIN
WANTED TO CRY
BT I STOP IT
I SO FAN
U NOE
TIS IS WAT I MEANT
DE 1 HU RELI LOVE ME LIK TRUE FREN
TRUE FAMILY...

I ALWYS TRY TO CUM OUT FRM SADNESS
EU ALL! TREAT ME WAT ?! I DIN EVEN WAN TO SAY
IM A GAL! N IM HEART OF DE MAN
IM A TB
IM STIL YOUNG
I DOWAN DIE SO YOUNG AGE
IM A CHRISTIAN
IM DE 1 HU SEEKING FOR U ALL
GIVIN ME HAPINESS
I DOWAN EU ALL SAD
IS BCUZ MY HEART REALI HATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I SO PAISEH WIF MY 2ND REAL GOR!
N SO PAISEH FOR MY AIYA LAO PO!
IM!
DE 1
HU IS SAD
DE 1
ONI DE REAL PERSON
HU DAMN SAD BCUZ OF EU ALL
IM DE 1
CRY FOR EU ALL
SIMPAN DALAM HATI
TAK BOLEH KELUAR
KALAU BOLEH
SAYA NAK NGANGIS DALAM

MK I DO RELI LOVE EU
BT WAT U DONE
I TRUSTED U
I HATED EU SO MUCH
BT I TRY TO MAKE IT SOLVE
I DO TRY TO DUN HATE EU
I CNT PRETEND ANY MORE!!!!!!
I HATED EU !!!
DE 1 AND ONLY
DE 1 HU MAKE ME RELI HATE
BT.. NO MORE NW..
I GIV U 1 MORE CHANCES..
AND I FINALLY
IN MSN
I TELL U
I HATED EU SO MUCH
Y!! EU ALWYS MAKE ME WAN TO HATE EU
WHY DO EU GIVING ME SO MUCH HATED ONI ON EU
Y ?????!!!!!!
TIS IS DE REASON...
Y I HATED EU
TIS IS DE REASON
U SHUD NOE BETTER
TIS IS DE REASON
Y I DAMN LOVE EU TAT MOMENT
IS OK NW
I DUN HATE EU
IS BCUZ
I WAN EU TO NOE
IM DE 1
HU SEEKING EU ALL
GIVING URSELF HAPINESS
DIS IS WAT I WAN !
DIS IS WAT I WEAK AT!

XIIAO KE
MY TRUE FEELING
FOR EU
IS
PLS.. DUN HURT KIM ANY MORE
I NOE EU STILL LOVE HER
DUN BLAME HER ANY MORE!!
EU R NT MY JIE .. NW..
BT .. EU DO LOK PRETTY .. SUM TIMES.. EU DUN LOK UGLY FRM INSIDE..
DUN BLAME HER ANYMORE!!
TREAT HER BETTER
PLS!
TIS IS DE LAZ.. N DE FINAL
I WAN TO TELL EU
TIS IS DE REAL HAPINESS
IF U DUN LOVE HER
PLS
DUN HURT HER
B BAK FRENS
DUN MAKE HER ANGRY OR HATED EU

KIM GOR..
SUM TIME I DO ANGRY EU
CUZ
EVERY TIME DE MSG CUM ..
'BYE' TATS ALL
U NOE I SO ANGRY PPL DO TAT?!
EU CRY FOR HER
FOR WAT?!
SHE SO HURT EU
EU NOE..
I CRY FOR EU TOO..
FOR NT LISTENING TO ME
AND SUM TIME EU FEEL LIK SCOLDING ME
AND
EU CRY DAO NGAN ZHONG
EU NOE
I SO WORRIED
EU R LENG ZAI FOR WAT EU ARE!
B CONFIDENCE!
DUN MAKE ME WORRIED EU ANY MORE
I COUNT ON EU EU NOE?!
IF EU FALL
MY TURN TO FALL
ok!

SE..
NW..
ONI I CRY FOR EU..
IF EU DO TAT AGAIN
FREN WIF HER AGAIN
UNTIL
EU CUM BAK DAMN LATE
SMOKE OR OTHER TING
I WIL..
FAN MIN WIF EU..
NO FREN DO..
NW .. EU SHUD NOE..
IM NT SITTING WIF EU..
I DOWAN SAY MANY TING LE..
JST.
WANA C EU WHICH WAY EU CHOOSE..

TATS ALL

BREN..
JST B HAPI..

NiiCk

de day i ran away..

2ml is my bday lu..
haha..
2day .. so many ppl wish me ..
i so hapi..
bt i afraid of 2ml...
duno wat ting will hapen..
i nw writing tis blog..
my face is ... =(..
cuz so sienz...
haha thx for ur wish yar..
i reli hapi ^^..
c u guys noe my bday..
i reli hapi..
hope 2ml u all wil b hapi every day..
tats is my wish..
every 1 healthy alwys..


2day i go to LM..
buy pandu clothes..
tat person say..
no more pandu for my size..
SIAO

thn hw?
hw im goin to face teacher?
tat teacher so fuck de lor..
haix..
nid every wed to wear tat ting..
so more..
i wan buy zhat yiu de ting..
my mum dun let.
wait lar..
im goin to buy!
u no money so ?!
u big ar?
i wan wear thn my wish
u get lost frm me..
yes..
thats hw im weaked ..
so ?..
im nt like u ..
i dowan b lik u ...
mayb..
i tat time 18..
i wan find my own place to stay..
i dowan to live in here..
i dowan c thm..

of all.. i wan b peace..
i dowan to b sad..
i wan run away frm ther..
i dowan ppl sad..
i dowan every 1 sad..
i wan u all b hapi!..

ciaoz~

My heart..is So noisy..

i coudnt recognise nw... de me..
is could be .. so noisy inside..
2day..i finally hav a chance.to say hi to her..
i felt hapi..
de laz ting.. i noe.. i cry for her.. is no use..
................ i stil duno y .. i forgt her..bt my heart is stil love her..
i cried 2day..
whn ever i saw u .. it makes me reli tink of de past..
bt nw i sudenli learn wat u wan .. and wat u wan me to b ..
is hard.. to forgt me or u .. is bcuz v love each other so much...bt.. i alwys thought..
u r cute.. funny... caring.. n kind to every 1..
if u r me.. u wil noe y i so love eu ..
bt..funny answ is..
u nvr love me any more.. and i noe..
2day.. i saw u .. and i say hi..
is hard for me to say ..
bt i push myself..
if u r me.. wat u r goin to do?
u r tb.. n u hav a gal heart... is hard to for me .. to noe n learn frm others..
my wish..is bcuz.. i wan every 1 hapi...
i saw hu sad.. n i wil deff care bout her..
2day.. is my hapi day.. and oso.. i cried... 2 day..
wat so nice bout being hapi..
n not hapi...
my heart feel flowery.
bt..
i dun hav de brain.. to love ... or care others..
i care others..is de for others..to b hapi...
it mayb hard..for me..
bt i stil wan u to treasure over memories laz time..

She Call me (ellen)..
she say.she wif se..
break tat time.. she reli pain in her heart..
wat fuck her do tis to my ex?..
....
do i love her?
i cn feel de pain...
i duno y .. i stil cn treat others my ex lik tis?...
i duno...
i so confuse nw..
do i nid to tm her?...
or.. shudnt..
or mayb say u shudnt be sad..
she gt tell me she love u ..
if she dun love eu.. oso she wnt kao u ?..

haix...

i cnt even noe..

i duno i shud love her..
bcuz.. i duno y i wan dui her.. so lovely..
i duno y i wan to love her even tis much..
my brain oni tink others..bt nt me.
i wan ppl around me love de same whn i love her so much..
she say..she adi no feel towards me..
fine...
i duno much bout tat..
jst wan her to b hapi..
if ppl kao her..treat her gud..
thn..
i hapi..
i downa ppl hurt her..
or wat..
oni few ppl noe i stil love her..
even my bst fren say gambateh chase her..
i say..
past almst for me about 1 year..
Y I STIL LOVE HER?!
even SHE SAY BREAK DE LAZ
WAT DE FUCK..
SHE DUI ME lik tis..
i stil love her?
de ans..
is..i duno..
She steal my heart..
wat else i noe is..
im nt loving her ..
bt...
my heart stil gt her..
i DUI ellen ''mm jue''
i DUI Xiao mao.. oso ..
i DUI MYSELF ''MM JUE''
i tell myself..
i dun love her any more..
bt y i stil wan lik tis?
is bcuz of wat?
WAT MAKES me so love her?
cn i noe?
haix..
past jiu past..
cnnt say anyting de lar..
m i crazy?
if im crazy..
y i stil wan love her?
DE ANS..adi tell..
bt..
cnnt say..
i been through bad year..
if u duno my heart is burning..
Haix..
haix..

LIEW JING YI.. MY HEART STIL GT U ..

she oso duno..
NiiCk

2day..wat a sunny day..

i wan her to noe..
if she reli wan b tb..
thn she do ba...
i dowan tink so many ler..
i lik u is bcuz i dun hav any reason to love sum 1..
and..de reason y ... i mad at u is bcuz..
i dowan u to misund me..
i jst want u to do wat ever u lik..

now gud ner..
out of de group ler.
so wat?
haix...
de whole day..
fan fan fan fan fan tis word..cum out every day..
Pmr adi gou fan ..
sum more fren fan..
i n her de ting oso fan..

2day..
tat gal JE ..
veli gud ar...
v jst plying.
whn my fren say bout those word..
i jst say 'ooooXD '
thn she say ' slap gao u oni u noe ' - funny tone..
thn i bu shuang jor..
whole time i bang books bang pen bang every ting i gt..
my fren oso ask me dowan b lik tis..
haix..
U WAN ME DO WAT?! i hate gao her i bu shuang her.
i noe she gt many ppl lik gao her.
don b so lan c cn mou?
==||
gt ppl say me Cute or leng zai..
i LC ppl mou?!
mother puki..
==

2day ..
whole day kena my fren..
haha.
i so careless..
thn i jst say sorli..

i hope 2ml wil b better thn 2day..
haix..
if i dun angry her..
i duno i wil oso lik her..
cuz.
i love my ex damn dip
so..
i duno y ..
i love de ppl oso no feeling de..
haix...

regret love her..
nw fren oso cnnt doo..
haix..
thx to So many fren..
i cn hapi ..
bt nt every day..
i dowan tink her
dowan love her..

thx all ..
i wan my fren..
hapi..

Treasure frenship or Family ship..
SE
XiiaO Kim
Karen
Michelle..
Chyrel
Pui Pui
Mei kee..

Love eu all..
even though im nt lik tb sum time..
bt u all stil treat me gud..
thx..^^


NiiCk

Up Till Now..

ytd .. go out wif kim , karen n Kinno..
walao .. so hapi man..
bt.. kim whole day cnnt lough..
gt lough..bt i cn c de tipu lough..
at 1st..i duno hu is karen..i gt c her fs..
bt i duno in real life lar..XD
haha..
kim say..she nid to make up .. 1 hour..
walao .. siao!..
bt at laz..she came oso..
haha..she pretty ^^.. prettier frm de pic..
so..every 1 .. wait wait .. thn ply ply..thn go sum wher..yam cha.. oni
me n karen yam cha.. others all sit ther..
thn take pic pic SO MANY..
bt..u c...
fs oni gt 2 new pic XD..
take jor thn yung sui delete! WALAO. XD
thn..ok lu..kinno take karen home..
i n Kim go take bus 62 together..thn stop in LM.. i go n LM find Family..
she stop in LM go other side take other bus or taxi..
thn..bak home ler..

de problems..begin...ppl crying..
me..
kim..
karen..
xiao ke..

cry..
haix..
kim bcuz of ke.cry.
thn .. bcuz of thm 2 hurting each other so fan things cry..
karen bcuz of KIN n KIm.. cry..
KE bcuz of kim dowan to pak tor bak cry..

haix...
i so fan..
i kip on say tings..more gt tulang de..
haix..
nw.
until nw din even hav smile on my face..

i reli lik KIM ..has my gor de..
bt..
haix..
she veli sad..

NiiCk

hope 2ml..i dowan hav BST FREn prob..

Hopes but not me

if u ever love me.. y dun u tell me?
dun alwys wan run frm me.
u noe..i reli wan u to talk to me..
i feel so hurt.and sad..
jst to tell me u love me..
bt at de heart..u stil love me mar?
i dowan to meet any 1..
i jst wan u to talk to me 1 more time..
i love u ..frm very begining
i love u more thn u do..
so pls..
talk to me..

Baby Girl

i 2day..start sch le..
damn tired..
so bored..
so unlucky..go to sch..giv ppl catch my hair..
summore bring lighter go sch..and .. forgt bring bak..
scare scare teacher will catch me...
haiya..after sch.. i go bak home..get ready..1hour to prepare..go LM find michelle n chyrel..
they 2 ar.. haiya.. i duno wat to say lar...1..chyrel gt bf..here do all cold stuff let me c...
thn 2.. michelle..say to me..that she will oni kap leng zai tb... oni make me oni.. i so xin tam jor..
duno y so xin tam lor..jst hear this things..i adi sot gao liaw... duno y ...
mayb i hav lil bit feeling for her gua..i duno..
thn i go round LM .. i dowan go bak de..i dun feel wan go bak... cuz i walk wif michelle mm hang go bak.. early...


saw dao my mum in Giant lm.. ponteng kerja..dowan let me noe..suan lar.. i catch her..hahah..

so .. go round wif her.. thn.. go bak..

CUM BAK..WALAO

TIRED DAO ME...SUMMORE WALK BAK HOME! ><.. 2day muz sleep early..

2ml start study.. PMR tis year..

MY BAD LUCK year...

LALALALALA~ BY SE7EN

IF U R MY BST FREN . Y SHUD U HIDE THINGS FRM ME?! i hate de ppl .. i noe veli well . hide things frm me.. i nt important thn sudah lar! u chg jor u noe mou! every time u wan help thm suan lar. i help jor u damn lot been dangerous times wif u damn lot! u treat me hw?! i so pain u noe in de heart. i duno wat wrong wif u all . every time wan me b de dog of yrs ar?im sorli man.. i noe u gt so many ppl chang ! i noe u power lar! i damn hate why u ask thn say nothing! i treat u gud for nothing! tis whole year 2008 is my hapi day wif my best fren.nw sudenli turns out. u wan say nothing in return! im sorli man ! i dun dang zhe u r my bst fren lor. if u reli wan b my bst fren le hua thn u shud tell me wat hapen ! I HATE U NOE! i nvr wan blive u nw..nvr.. u noe nw i trusted u so much. u wan ask tis. hw?.. i damn confuse. parents ask u stay at home lar. u dowan. wn go out.say so sienz. thn hw bout me?ok lar. nw u wan take de place laz time i been true thn SERVE ur SELF . dun cum begging me wat to do! is ur choice k?! OK MOU! laz time i wif u de times HAZ BEST FREN SO MANY PPL NOE. nw gud lar.. i soooooooooooo wan to say thx u ! make me relize..i cnnt trust ppl.. i so sad. u noe mar? whn ppl start saying me wat tis wat tat. u help me.. whn ppl say ur bad things i help u .. nw.. in return u jst wan go out.. cnnt stay at home de meh?i noe nw i shudnt hav best fren. i tahan jor so many time.nw i dowan say any thing jor.. I SUAN jor u .. I Fong hei jor. i dowan talk bout u any more.. i reli hate those time wif u nw.!